Enemy Of All Things
May 19, 2018 Uncategorized 0 comment ckirk18
There are plenty of times that I have not asked a question due to feeling stupid in front of the class. There was one day in class that I didn’t ask my math teacher if this was correct in front of a bunch of people that were able to do it with ease, knowing that there is more of a chance of my answer being wrong. There is only one thing about this situation, I never learn anything because I just sit there like everything is okay and I know what to do. All I needed was to do some foiling and reduce it as much as possible, getting my simple math wrong. I would always fail every test because I would get something very simple and small, something that I found out how to do many years ago. I should never feel afraid to ask a question because I know that I more than likely did a little mistake in my equation somewhere, at this point I feel like I am not going to make it by the end of the year. I would be very upset at myself for not asking for help from anyone.
When I have a question again I just sit there and when the teacher asks me if I am okay or if I need help I said no, I know that it wasn’t going to get me anywhere if I just sat there and didn’t get any help from someone at least. I always seem to be doing the opposite of each like I think I am adding when I am subtracting and vice versa, or I always think I am multiplying when I am really dividing and vice versa. It is simple as multiplying 2 and 4 and getting the wrong answer because I don’t pay attention to what I am doing and normally I don’t go over it again to make sure that I have it correct because I know that I will more than likely have to do it all over again for the next 30 minutes because of the process to go through.
Knowing I needed to pass because it is my last year at high school, I decided to get some help after school, everything worked out perfectly because the kids there in the room didn’t judge me, they didn’t bother me or even make fun of me for it. Now I am not really afraid to get help from a teacher when I need it, I know I will never get made fun of by any of the kids at my school. Knowing that my teacher will never be like “What are you doing Christina, you learned this in Kindergarten or first grade”. Knowing that my answer would be I never went to kindergarten and at my old school, no one cared to help me was always on the back of my mind, I knew that I had to do something by myself and use the back of the book just to understand it. Sometimes it would just be an instinct to look at the book to see if I got the right answer or if I had the wrong one without the teacher to help me understand why it was wrong and what I did to make it that way. Their answers would always “well you have to go to kindergarten, and doubt that they didn’t want to help you stop with the excuses”. I am never afraid of that because my teachers understand that I don’t really know what I am doing. I think that if I didn’t ask for help and waited longer than I would never be able to pass this year even if I just pass it by a little, just trying to get through the year with at least all passing grades to my overall grade will at least be passing. If I didn’t ask then I would still be struggling not knowing what I need to do and have people get upset because I am not doing my homework and not going to pass my last year of high school.
