The Sky Is Not The Limit
May 24, 2018 Uncategorized 0 comment jahlberg18
From the moment you are born, till the moment you die is always a new step. Life is like a ladder to heaven. You start on the first step, and eventually make your way up and when the ladder ends, that’s the final part of your life. There are many types of steps, like stairs, stones, instructions, and most importantly taking a step above others. That is the one golden step I have lived by in my high school career.
Freshman year was a breeze. The homework was light, I was friends with only a couple people so that meant no drama, and sports were awesome with upperclassmen because they all respected us (unlike I thought they would). Everyone was okay with each other because we all were the same freshman year, super nervous and timid. Our friends and peers were our back bones to finding comfort and safety if anything did happen. The first year of high school was by far my favorite year. This was my first step on the ladder, because it started out easy but then slowly progressed over the 4 years.
Sophmore year was when all the drama started coming. We were all comfortable with high school now and not considered fresh-meat anymore by the upperclassmen. I made starting varsity in my most favorite sport ever, which is obviously soccer because who doesn’t love it? This year got a little rougher because people started saying stuff about me that was not true and tried making me feel bad about myself. Though I only took that as energy to fuel myself with happiness. I was not concerned with anything that year, I was genuinely such a happy person. Which when I did not let those groups bother me, they backed down a little bit. It was me not only rising above others to not take their negative energy, it was me moving up that ladder and taking that extra step to be better than they were.
Junior year was a little difficult. The work was loaded on more than I expected, friends really started turning around on me, and senioritis was cleary kicking in super early. I struggled with insecurities because peers did not fail to tell me every little thing that was wrong about me, aka my body shape, how dumb I am, or even how my boyfriend should break up with me because I am trash, or I should not be in National Honor Society because I am not good enough. It was an ongoing realm of desperation that never seemed like it would end. This caused me to get minor depression, and anxiety started kicking in slowly. I hope that nobody ever has to feel that bad about themselves, because it is the worst feeling. Eventually I started feeling better about myself; I got outside, I went to the gym, I did all whole bunch of things. It slowed down more towards the end of the year because summer and capstone was on everyone’s mind. My advice for upcoming high schoolers that if this ever happens to is to beat them with happiness. It might sound cliche but I promise you, it works. Then finally, junior year ended, and I had a two month relief period that soon escalated into a horrible senior year.
Senior year. 2017-2018. This year was hands down the worst year I have ever lived. Since I am almost out it has gotten so bad, because nobody cares about anyone anymore, unlike freshman year. The ones you were friends with before, are no longer in the picture, and eventually you find out that all you have is yourself. Many tears have been shed, and my emotions have been on an ongoing rollercoaster. Nevertheless it is now May 16, 2018 and we have 9 days left until we are out of high school for good. To be quite honest, truthfully the best advice I would give to the kiddos that will be in my position in the next couple years, is to just forget about toxic people. Rise above, because there is no limit how far up that ladder you can go. Each step is one step closer to your happily ever after ending that you have dreamed about since you were young. But before that can happen you have to realize you have only got you, and it is what you do with yourself that really matters. Strive for excellence, unfriend those bullies who made you miserable, and just breathe. Because if I could redo my high school career, 2014-2018 I would do exactly that. You are not on this Earth to please everyone, you do not have to follow others paths, you should just be yourself and reach for the stars. The sky has no limit, and that should be exciting for you. Rise up to the others, and reach for that next step because you never know what it may hold.
