Distant Friends

I was not always popular. I`m still not popular. I have made new friends, and I have lost friends. During freshman and sophomore year my goal was to make sure that I could help all my friends in any way possible. It was only two years ago when Olivia went through a difficult time with a boy. Yes, it seems typical, but it was worse that you think. Something I am not comfortable talking about without her. But things were rough and I rushed over to make sure she was okay. She was in tears when I got to her house. She said she didn’t know what to do and didn’t want to tell her dad. I was there to listen to her side as well as everything she had to say, and give as much advice as I could. I hugged her with every piece of my body and heart. She was so thankful to have me with her. Right then and there I was so happy to know that I was able to help my friend out. We have been through a lot and while we did not stay as close of friends for the remainder of high school, I knew she would always have my back.

I was recently in a car accident. It has been extremely difficult for me, to stay positive due to the outcome of the accident. While I was driving I rolled the vehicle twice, off the road and into the woods. It was called in as a fatality, meaning they did not think in any way that I was alive. I was rushed to the hospital and my truck was totaled. When I was in the ambulance they told me that if I was any taller I would have died. I have never been so lucky in my life. I had a real guardian angel with me. I now realize how precious everything in life is. I was a straight A student for the first three years of high school. However, I made a few bad decisions in the past year that have changed everything. As of now I am no longer able to have contact with certain people or do things that I wish I could. There is no one else to blame but me for this. While going through this it has been extremely difficult for me to stay positive. Because of all my bad decision I believed I did not have anymore friends that believed in me or thought that I was still capable of the things I once was. Nor did I myself believe I was. I was proven wrong.

There are still many that believe in me and tell me that I was just going through a rough patch, but that I am able to get myself out of it. Olivia has taken me in her arms and told me that everything is going to be okay. She has been with me every step of the way since the accident and I could not be more thankful to have her to help me. Aj has given me an inspirational quote everyday to keep my mindset positive. He tells me everyday that he is here for me and that he is going to help me day by day to keep my head up. Brandon has done nothing but tell me that I can do it and given me unconditional love a support to keep me on track. He has told me that he believes I can still reach my dreams of being a Rockette, even though that is going to be extremely hard and we all know it. All of my friends believe I can make it if I set my mind to it. Maggie has told me that I need to continue on and get myself out of the hole I made but to focus on myself and not worry about others, to put my needs and priorities first. And Emma and olivia have been so generous to bring me to and from school for right now as I don`t have a license or a vehicle. They have all been so supportive of me and help me with anything I need. Because of them, I have never been more ready to find the old me, myself again. I could not ask for any better of friends in this moment of my life right now. So thank you.

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