Aiming Too Low
December 10, 2019 Uncategorized 3 comments hvinal20
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Everyone is worried about their future, I was not excluded from this process obviously as I went through the ever-winding process that is the discovery of oneself. With this situation coming about in my life I never knew truly what I wanted to do, but I always had a notion of wanting to help people.
Throughout my childhood it became apparent that farming is a large part of my bloodline, most all of my heritage has to do with owning a farm or working on a farm, I grew up around cows, pigs, chickens, horses, donkeys, sheep, ducks, ponies, goats, geese, and bulls. I knew how to pour the feed into their troughs and maneuver them into pens and pastures, I knew how to operate and talk around all of them, and I learned how to respect them and earn their respect. Working around animals felt like an artist with their easel or a writer with a pen so I thought this was the perfect place for me as it seemed to be where I shined.
I thought I was too young to be able to decide my future just yet and throughout the time I thought that I was aiming too high for myself because I was a boy born on a farm with a head filled with stereotypes stunting my aspirational growth. But I was overthinking, and I was messing with my own future by messing with my own mind. By the time I was in middle school my entire point of view of the situation had changed, I was thinking of a whole different approached to my future.
Farming had been in my life for a very large amount of my childhood but with growing up and thinking of being a farmer my entire life had changed as I went from wanting to farm my entire life to wanting to do nothing, I wanted to do nothing in my future. So if I wasn’t going to do anything in my future, I decided not to do anything in the present failing a majority of my middle school classes, not even taking home my bag filled with all of my homework preparing me for the future. I gave up for absolutely no other reason than I thought I wasn’t good enough to become anything that amounted to anything. That was one of the biggest mistakes I ever made in my entire life, giving up.
One of the biggest mistakes a person can make at a young age is giving up on their future because no one’s future is definite and simultaneously no one’s life is going to work out the exact way one may plan to have it work out. Which is exactly what I figured out when I came to the complete conclusion of deciding that the ultimate goal is to become a general surgeon with many years of education with me and many years of experience working in a hospital setting. In life, there is no such thing as shooting too high, but there is such a situation as directing yourself too low.
People are capable of amazing things, they’re capable of becoming amazing people and accomplishing amazing things as long as they show their determination and persistence to accomplish their goals in life. This is almost the exact situation I was presented with as I was determining who I wanted to be and what I was capable of doing with the presence of me being able to fully comprehend the value of human life and what peoples are able to accomplish. People are allowed to aim high but they are not allowed to aim too low because human life holds an inestimable value that can bring about great things. Learning the value of life is as complex as filling one’s highest hopes and as hard of accomplishing one’s most desired achievements, with the same amount of risk as grasping the chances one is too afraid to hold.
3 Comments
I really liked your story, and I can relate to this. I have known that I had a passion for wanting to help people for as long as I can remember, and I knew that I wanted to go into a field that I could do so. And I too have had troubles in school and feeling like I wasn’t good enough. I failed classes that I might have been able to pass if I had put my mind to it. Failing those classes made me feel even worse but at the time I thought it would not matter, and I can see my mistake in thinking that now. Your last paragraph was very interesting to me and I like the view you took on it. Though I do think there is such a thing as aiming too high because, in the long run, people could be disappointed if they don’t reach their goal and it could make them give up completely.
I really liked your explaination of the sterotypes and expectations you had in your head. I was also worried about going into the medical field because no one else in my family persued that type of career. But I also knew from a young age that I wanted to be around people and help them. I love that we both share this passion!
Hey! This is a really good and relatable story. I was raised on a farm as a kid too actually, and of course I figured out it wasn’t for me! I really cant express how much I relate to this because I was exactly like you. I also didn’t see a future in my self and I only recently started having that passion and confidence! Your writing is very good and descriptive – Good job!