The Struggle Of Learning

When I was younger in martel elementary I never thought I would need the extra help that most kids wouldnt need and I thought it was funny, like I did all they needed was help and I needed all the teachers to understand and give me one on one communication and attention because I didn’t understand a lot of things like most kids did.

My dad would never take me to school in the mornings and where I lived if I walked to school it wasn’t safe neither was I old enough and I had to always wake up my dad up because he would be my ride to and back from school. I always thought it was funny because less help for me which means I wouldnt have to deal with people bullying and being rude to me because of my disability and how im not like everybody else in that area.

You would think that your dad would be responsible and take you to school every morning because every parent knows that education is important in life but he didn’t care and thats the reason why I dont live with my dad to this day, right now im a senior in highschool at oak hill and suprises me that ive made it this far because most kids need their parents pushing them through teenage life stuff and the growing pains but no I told myself that I got this and right now I have family that love me and want me to go to school I take a bus every morning, and when I go to school now I put my best effort in it because I know when I was little I struggled a lot and I still struggle because I have so many gaps in my education.

However, even though I struggle still I now get the special eduction services I need to complete high school and go beyond. The first day of high school they had me meet with the special ed director at oak hill she was a very nice lady her name was Ms Erskine, she helped me find classes that I need extra help in such as math, math has always been a struggle for me, until now I have been getting better at it and asking for help because I know I deserve my education and my future. English can be a struggle for me although I try very hard to be on task and always asking for help with assignments.

They gave me an academic support study hall which is a study hall just get extra help, they help me with math and english. Although Life can be hard when you dont know what you need or dont know how to ask for it because maybe your scared to ask people because your scared that people will make fun of you because your “normal” when in truth you are you just learn much slpower then most kids.

When I struggle now I dont think its funny anymore but im always doubting myself with so many classes because of my disability my teachers understand me the most, and sometimes I do laugh because it helps me get through all of this because its very hard to ask for help still because you see so many kids just raise their hands and know everything right away and makes you feel like your not a normal kid like everybody else.

In conclusion, Eventually you are going to struggle, you should always ask for help no matter if you have a disability or not because we are human and we do make mistakes. When it comes to your future its not always funny and this moment wasn’t because this disability isn’t my fault and I have to be willing to accept that I have it. Everybody has their strengths and their weeknesses you just got to find the right strength to push through the hard stuff so you can get your dream job. For the longest time I didnt know what I wanted to be and my teachers have taught me that teaching is an amazing job because you help kids like me that need extra help like me.

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