Common Sense

I tend to ask questions no one is willing to ask and even just ask the utmost stupidest questions. Like my friends would tell me something and I’d be like “can you repeat that, didn’t hear the first 3 times you told me” or even “I kinda forgot what you said haha, could you tell me it again.” That’s when people get upset when I forget what they said just seconds after telling me. Here is a quick story. One day I was sitting down near the square box is near the senior lockers and I hear j tizzle talking how he just crashed his care and destroyed the front end of it. The question I had asked him was “Is the engine okay” and j tizzle gives me this look of confusion and says “No Cameron if I say the front of the car got destroyed then how would the engine be okay”. That is when I had realized I maybe shouldn’t have asked such a dumb question and I decided to stay quiet.

I find myself to be just asking such dumb questions that I wish I never asked such dumb questions and just kept my dumb questions to myself instead of having someone repeat the same word over and over again and them getting annoyed and calling me “dumb”. I’ll be honest, I don’t use my common sense that often so I think that is why I find myself always asking questions and some of them end up coming out dumb because of how obvious they are to answer by myself. I think the reason why I ask so many questions is that I like to get an answer and I forget everything I’m told which does not help anything. Okay let me ask a question right now actually, why do we have to write about this topic like it is such a tough topic to just expand and keep writing about. My head is going off the walls because it doesn’t know how to write this.

Okay, now I got that question out time to get back to the actual question. Seething is if I ever asked a question I feel like I’m stupid, but if I never ask questions all the time I feel like I would be boring. Asking questions defines who I am as a person. This is completely off topic but like when you get ready to ask a girl on the date you kinda start to sweat a little, your face gets red, my voice will start to crack as I get ready to ask “Heyyyy, you free Friday because I was thinking let’s go to the movies.” Then you practice it in your head over and over then you practice saying it quietly so she doesn’t hear you but then when she asked “you say something” and you’re like “um, yeah actually.” So you start to sweat even more and right as soon as I go to say it I was like “Hey, I was thinking…” and she was like “What are you thinking” then I would say this really fast, “Wanna go to the movies sometime this week.” Like I would be so nervous and it would come out so fast because I thought maybe if I did that she wouldn’t hear what I had said, but too bad she did. This girl ended up saying yes which made all the nervous just come right and even though I still had a bit of shakiness in me but I manage to recollect myself. If I was never a question type of person maybe I wouldn’t have dates, like ever, I had to push through a threshold to be able to ask girls out. Now I’m more smooth about it and relaxed and feel like if it’s a no, then that’s fine and I’m chill about it but if it’s a yes I get super excited and just start going off the walls at my house and jam out to music because of how happy it makes me.

If I never asked questions I probably wouldn’t have a chance with a girl because I would be so awkward instead of so open and honest because asking questions really did shape out who I am. I do wonder if I never asked the questions maybe I could be relying more on others than myself to do my own work. Maybe even try to look up answers instead of getting the help needed to complete a summative or to get a better understanding from the teacher rather than the interweb. The way I reflect on this is how it made me grow into a not so shy person. I used to be extremely shy but since I had reached high school it helped me break out of my shy personality and be more open and able to ask questions without being nervous and start to look for others to answer my questions for me.

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