Asking About The Future

Now here I am a senior in highschool soon to be done, although its very hard to believe but still to this day I do not live with my parents my dad just can’t take care of me for several reasons that I won’t mention here and my mom can’t either because she’s mentally sick and that’s not her fault. However, I live with my cousin and her husband and they push and shove me through life because I wouldn’t be this far if not.

I remember I would always ask my dad when I lived with him if I would make it this far in life, would I ever go to highschool? he didn’t make it as far as I did, he never graduated and I thought to myself that I would be just like him. Sometimes you don’t know how far you are gonna go with the level of your education because all you can do is wish for the best for yourself and others you care about around you. In life you have to make an attempt to try even if thats questioning everything you do and making mistakes and learning through your life as you go.  Over time, I thought that I would make it farther than my family because of my family’s history and I wanted better for myself I wanted to be different and actually have a job down the road that I love doing which is something with science and helping others most likely animals because I see animals more lovable, affectionate, and they cant talk so they can’t say much but even if they did I don’t think it would always be negative.

Ive realized that that stupid question that I use to ask him I still ask but with my cousins and instead of asking whether or not im going to finish highschool I ask am I ever gonna make it to college and do a job everyday that I love doing. The time that I remember asking a stupid question was when I was at highschool and I asked my teachers if I would finish the rest of my highschool career, for the longest time I didn’t think I would because of the environment I grew up in and I realized that over time I would end up further then just highschool I would go beyond then what my family ever did. No matter how stupid the question might be you need to ask it anyways because you wont know until then, Ive realized this throughout my childhood because there are moments where I did learn the hard way.

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