Life is a question.

When being a senior in high school you have a lot of question that need to be answered or you are going to get asked. At the beginning of the year everyone always asked me what I was going to do in college, and at that point I don’t even know if I will be going to college. I had no idea what I wanted to do. These days adults expect you to know what you are going to do with your future and you should know your plan for the first 5 years after high school, but really we do not. If we say that we don’t we look lazy or not taking life seriously. I say a lot of stupid stuff but what really makes me embarrassed is when people ask me what I was going to do after high school. When I say “I don’t know” it makes me sound like I am going to be a failure and not taking anything seriously.

High school and college are 2 very different types of learning. It will be very different for everyone and not everyone is ready for that transition. All my life I have been wanting to do something in the medical field my family and friends knew and when people asked me I said ” I want to do something in the medical field but I am not sure where I am going to school” This was in the beginning of junior year. I took some classes about the medical field and I have done some dissections which I like, but I didn’t see myself doing it in the future, so I started looking at a different path and found my way to a subject that I love. I talked to my parents about it and I was still in the middle of junior year and it was becoming surreal to me, that I will be graduating in a little over a year. After the summer of junior year, senior year came whipping around the corner and then I was really stressed out, I still didn’t know what I wanted to do. I went months not knowing the major I wanted to do, but I did know what college I was going too, the soccer coach reached out to me and I will be playing soccer for the college. While having all of that planned out I got a spark of interest from my Psychology class.

When I was looking into jobs in the Forensics field I saw a job that was exactly what I wanted to do. I went home and talked to my parents about it and I was really worried about asking because I want them to approve of the major. I was going through what I wanted to do and showed them the research I did about the job. After talking with my parents about it I put that as my major and I am so excited to be going to college and learning more on a subject that interests me so much. Me asking questions about my future or about my life is not stupid because you should be able to speak what you are confused about without being judged, but when other people come to me and ask and I have no clue that is where I am embarrassed. Teachers say that college is harder and you need to know what you are doing right out of high school. My question is, do you want to me to go into something where I have no idea what I am doing, or give me some time so I can figure out what I love to do and what intrest me to learn more even after I get the job?

“Finger face with a question” by Tsahi Levent-Levi is marked with CC BY 2.0.