My Worst Mistake

Freshman year started out with a bang. I was having a blast and it was a completely different experience than I had in past school experiences. I just had my first homecoming and it was amazing. My group of friends and I were really close but then halfway through the school year specifically in the middle of basketball season my life felt like it was changing a little. I just wasn’t getting along with my friends as much and just felt like I was stuck. I was introduced to a new friend through a friend and I really started to make a strong connection with them. I went and hung out a couple times with her and my life felt like it was getting better again. But the only other problem was that I was still having problems with my friend group from school. We were all just arguing all the time and they were mad that I was hanging out with my new friend. Then I made one of the hardest decisions and worst mistakes of my life.

The decision was that I just needed a break from my group of friends. They were all heartbroken when this happened, but I felt like this needed to be done for me to take time for myself and find out who I really wanted to be again. I got more time to spend with my new friend and I really enjoyed time with her. It was getting to the point where I really wanted to be in a relationship with this person. But there were decisions holding me back. She lived pretty far away, and I was still a freshman so I had no car or ride to ever see her. So I decided that I was just gonna keep it as friends for now. From now and on I would get texts from my friend group, but I would just ignore them because I just didn’t want anything to do with them at this point of my life. Then the unimaginable happened and Covid hit us. This was probably the hardest time in my life because now everyone was isolated and at home. I was still talking to this girl but then we just started to talk less and less everyday. We never saw each other again because of Covid and we just didn’t keep in touch anymore. So now I was left alone at home with no one to talk to besides my family. I had a lot of time to think it through during this time at home and it came to me that I really missed my friend group. So I decided that I was going to ask to be invited back into the group chat. I was lucky enough that they invited me back and now was time for the hard part.

I probably wrote a whole paragraph about how sorry I was about leaving them and how I shouldn’t have gotten so obsessed over another person. I was selfish, and I just didn’t feel like I was right so I took time to myself. They all understood what I was saying and my apology was accepted and I was back with my friend group. I realized that if there’s anyone that is gonna help me through problems it’s going to be them, but I just never went to any of them during the time I didn’t feel right. The mistakes I learned taught me that you need friends in your life and even if you may have hard times with them it’s not the end of the world and that you just have to move on past your issues. To this day I’m still best friends with each one of the friends in our group and It has made the past 4 years of high school so fun.

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