The Fault of the Matter

Mistakes are one of the biggest parts of a human’s life. Without mistakes, we would never be able to learn and grow. Realizing that we as people are allowed to mess up will in the long run help us to develop into the people that we will someday become. Living with and rectifying the mistakes that we make can also teach us to accept that we are not perfect and that we will only ever be human. The best way to live with our mistakes and misgivings is to accept and work through them. Even the most successful can make mistakes along the way in life.

Being able to work through and get past the things that I have a hard time with is a really difficult thing for me to do but in order to live a normal life I need to work through my mistakes and anxiety. I have made too many small and large mistakes to even count throughout the short life I have lived but I will always learn from them and adapt to them. One of the biggest mistakes that I have made in my short time was not allowing myself to be a part of something, whether that be joining a club, going to a school dance, or hanging out with my friends, I have always held myself at a distance from everyone that I know in order to never leave my comfort zone and to never feel like I could be put in a situation where I have to share more about myself. Avoiding getting-to-know-you games with questions like “What’s your favorite food?” or “Do you have any pets?” has been a huge struggle to navigate especially considering they are a big part of being in school. Even without the questionnaires, I would struggle to let people in. One time when I was in class, I knew they were gonna ask me to talk about myself and I froze up. I got so nervous that I nearly started to cry and had to leave the room to take a breather with my cousin. As much as I know I have anxiety and it won’t just go away, it’s a hurdle in my life and by keeping myself separate from my peers I have cut myself off from experiencing many things that I should have been able to do at this point in my life. Pulling back from living is one of the many things that I feel has been a mistake in my life. Putting myself back into society has been one of the hardest things to do to try and rectify my earlier mistakes, such as avoiding voicing my thoughts on anything. I have tried harder to be a part of the community around me and let more people in. Let more people know me. Fixed my mistakes.

Dealing with what has come of the mistakes you have made can be very difficult but in the end, could end with you feeling more accomplished and happier with yourself. By working through my mistakes I have felt more like I am experiencing my life for the first time without having to watch from the sidelines, wishing I was someone else. Wishing that I hadn’t pulled away. All mistakes, even the bigger ones like mine are things we can live and learn from. Hopefully, none of our mistakes are too detrimental to us or others but even then there is sure to be something we can learn from every mistake that we have or will make. So learn to live with the mistakes you make and fix the ones you can but never let that stop you from experiencing your life.

“lone kid (7 of 8)” by f_mafra is licensed under CC BY-SA 2.0.