Failure

It has been a hot and humid summer so far with work and having to be in a hazmat suit and or full face respirator. After working for 8 hours unless you then have to come home to change and do school work when my energy is completely drained and all I want to do is relax. But relaxing is not an option right now because I have to stay up till 10 sometimes 11 during the week at the latest since I have to have my rest in order not to harm myself at work or the other guys I work with. But on Friday nights after work and Saturday even if I have to work I have to stay up later sometimes till 2 in the morning doing my school work because I struggle with English. It is frustrating to see my dad and brother leave throughout the week and weekend to go fishing and relax out on the lake with a boat also cannot be able to grab my golf clubs and the basement and go play a round of golf after work to relax with a friend and old teammate and have fun. Instead I am doing school work so that I can receive my diploma. I am in this frustrating situation because of the lack of effort that I had an English two of my high school career. It is hard to put forth effort in something that I struggle with. It all starts from putting off one writing assignment because it was a hard and difficult task to complete. And then escalated to too many English assignments that are being place to the side because I find English to be a challenging subject. This affected all of my other classes like math and science because I was having to try and catch up and want I struggle but and put to the side. By all of this adding up over my high school years and made it where I had to attend 3 English classes in one semester for my senior year. This made it even more difficult to be able to complete and stay on top of my assignments my senior year. Luckily golf is in the fall and is a short season so I was able to compete and complete the season before I got overwhelmed and fell behind in class where I couldn’t participate in sports. During the winter I tried out for the high school hockey team which I ended up being able to start the season but wasn’t able to complete my senior year of ice hockey. When spring came around and it was time for my favorite sport baseball I ended up not even trying out for the team because I was so far behind in my school work I also have to stop going to the gym in the morning because I was having to stay up late on school nights doing work. Over the years my friends would crack jokes and laugh about me failing classes and being behind on my work and I found it easier to laugh with them at my situation. Situations whether they be self-inflicted or from an outside source. You can choose to laugh, cry, run and hide from the situation but at the end of the day you still have to meet the situation head-on.

Photo by M I K E M O R R I S on Trendhype / CC BY-SA