Almost Lost a Great Opportunity
October 22, 2018 Uncategorized 3 comments rlovell19
The best part of my senior year is teaching the juniors what I learned from my previous senior leaders. It also strengthens my skills and brings out new ones I never knew I had. The hardest thing is knowing I almost did not try to be a senior leader. Knowing the best part of my year was almost non existent is tough. I enjoy everything that I am showing to the juniors and feel excited everytime I go to class. I could have been a higher rank then what I am now, made my schedule less stressful in the beginning, I also thought I was not good enough. Being a senior leader has already been a start to improving and giving myself new skills and I almost did not become one.
If I had tried to become a senior leader in the first place I know I could have gotten a higher rank. I would have tried harder on the test, on the resume, the paper we had to write, and the interview. The test was long and drawn out but I know I would have studied more to get a better grade then I did. We also had to make a resume because my teacher said it is important to know how to go into an interview. My resume came out fine, but I did it only an hour before the class. As for my paper, that was to show what you could bring to the future class if you became a leader. If I had tried I would have been more detailed about everything and shown what ideas I had already come up with. Now I am just showing my new idea when I can. The interview you walked in and the senior leaders I had ask you a series of questions and make sure you can do some of the drill moves. My answers were great besides the beginning statement which was “if I was going to be a senior leader”. Maybe I was not sure of myself and what my abilities were.
My schedule was messed up when I got it the day it was sent through the mail. The reason is because shortly after the interview I told Mr. Reece I was wrong and wanted to be a senior leader. He was ecstatic. After we were told to put down classes for schedules for senior year. I did not want to put down all of them because I had the chance of becoming a senior leader now. My advisor told be to put down classes just in case I was not going to be one. That is what I did. When going to the LRTC Law Enforcement ceremony I found out I was a senior leader. The next day I told guidance to take a couple classes out of my schedule, they said they would. When I recieved my schedule that was not the case. The random classes I had put in there were still in and my LRTC senior leader class was not. On August 20th I called the school to have them change it, they said they would get in contact with Mr. Reece and get it figured out. On the first day of school I was lucky, I had my origional LRTC class so I could talk to Mr. Reece. He had not recieved an email and on the first day of school I was stressed all day to fix my schedule. If I had tried in the first place maybe I would have already known I would be a senior leader.
The reason I did not try to be a senior leader first is because I did not think I was good enough. Many people thought that I was crazy and that I would definitely be good enough for the role. I knew my material, always put my best effort into drill and languages. Which happens to be what we are teaching the juniors right now. In my head I thought there were other people that would do better than me and I did not deserve to be a senior leader. Thinking about how good my major was and never being able to live up to how good she was. I doubted myself. What I did not know is that fear of trying and failing is what stopped me from putting my best effort in. Fear of failing was my downfall.
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It’s amazing to see how much you have changed and grown from this opportunity given to you. You are so brave and confident, and you have really shown that you can be a great leader and mentor to the other kids in your class. You have really stepped up into the role of being a leader, and since I know you personally I know you are the best teacher they have to learn from.
I remember when you were telling me about this, you were so upset and frustrated that your schedule wasn’t right. When it finally got changed and got to how you wanted it to be, you were so happy and I can tell that your still happy teaching them today.
A lot of people say that the first step of overcoming a fear is being able to identify it, so the fact that you were able to not only do that, but already be able to take steps to overcome it is amazing! You’ve already grown so much since then, and I’m sure that you’ll continue to overcome your fear. Thank you for sharing!