Love Yourself Before Others

Hello. You have the great privilege of hearing me talk. For basically the first time ever. So sit down. Buckle up. It’s about to get wild.

    Now I have to prepare myself *take breath*  Now let’s begin. It all started back in kindergarten, when my dad was deployed and times were pretty rough and I was pretty depressed. As a 5 year old. I realized it was hard to make friends, who knows maybe it was just my rbf that developed at an early age. I seemed to attract the wrong types of friends, especially the ones that leave you alone on the playground. They also seem to leave you as you get older too. In high school I was my own clique. I didn’t fit in anywhere. I wandered around on my own for a while, had some relationships come and go. Grades and sports were going great. Field hockey is pretty amazing, especially  coach Betsy. She’s my best friend, she’s inspired me to put myself out there. She has taught me what is important in life and that is a big part of how my life is today. Hearing her life stories and what she finds important led me to my best friend. Coach always tells us girls “don’t be a snowflake” and put yourselves out there. And with that I put myself out there. I proceeded to go ask Kaylei for Dunkin runs every morning for 2 and a half months straight. I’m not sure why she said yes, I must say I am pretty annoying. Now we’re pretty sure we’re twins separated at birth.

 Kaylei has always told me my happiness is what is most important. I’ve been through a lot with her. Tears especially. And I can’t tell you if they are crying tears or from laughing so hard from my stupidity. I tend to make her cry a lot. Don’t worry, she’s fine. I might have punched her one time. But let’s not talk about that. During senior year I have reached a lot low points in my life but Kaylei is always there to bring me back up. She gives me confidence and it because of that I am happier than I ever been. I have realized all the moments of happiness in my life don’t compare to what she has taught me. While writing this  speech on the way home from kfc and Dunkin’ I realized “wow I really am at a high point in my life, but damn my headlight is out”. The only thing stopping me is a cop. But seriously, it is out. Okay I’m losing my train of thought. Back to the point. I recently have taken the negativity out of my life. The ones who I thought brought me happiness just wanted to bring me down in the end. It has caused me to ask myself “am I really worth it?”. But as Ariana Grande says, “Thank you, next”. I have moved on with my life with the help of my best friend. Teaching me to love myself before I shower others with love. I work so hard to make others happy that I have decided to put that on pause and think about, “ what do I really want?”. And what I really want is just to have fun in life. I got rid of all the negativity in my life to make room for more of my crazy adventures. A Dunkin run with me is never, just a dunkin run. Ever.

  So what you should take away from this speech is, love yourself before others. Get yourself a Kaylei. You only need one amazing friend rather than 10 so called “friends” who says they will be there for you but never actually show up. All you really need in life is someone to tell you, “you are important” when you are questioning it. It’s okay to have your own clique, as long as you are happy. You will always be able to move on in any situation. You should never regret anything that has happened, even the biggest mistakes. And with that being said my coffee is melting and my right headlight is still out.

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