Doors Closing

While most people look back on their choices and regret them, they shouldn’t. It might be a cliche, though I strongly believe everything happens for a reason. Nothing is thrown your way that you aren’t made to handle. That isn’t meant to happen. When one door closes, another opens.

Throughout my time in high school the biggest lesson I have learned is that the only person you can always depend on, is yourself! You have your friends that come and go, you have your family that is forever by your side. But you as a person are of the utmost importance (and quite frankly, you’re always stuck with your own presence). That means you need to put your mental, physical and emotional health before anything else. I’ve come to a point where even when my heart tells me to put others first, it isn’t necessarily right for me.

I would say I’ve gone through a lot the past four years, like anyone else really. Even the most pure intentions can put you in a situation you never thought was possible. I’ve had one naive text message turn into a hectic lockdown. Another causing a temper tantrum, oh and not to mention my prom date ditching me three days before prom because of it. Only real people will understand… Beyond that, I might sulk at moments and wish those incidents never happened, except sometimes it is a lesson more for others than it is for yourself. Life is simply unfair. If you think negatively you are bound to stay confined within that negativity.

I might wish I made more friends earlier than my senior year, but I will take that as a motive to make even more friends in college, when it isn’t too late in the game. I might wish that I didn’t make certain choices. I might wish that certain individuals didn’t make choices that impacted me in a way other than positively. Not everything is going to go the way it is planned out in your head. I could say I wasted all of high school on relationships, or I could tell myself it was exactly what I wanted at the time. Of course there are missed opportunities. Though the opportunities I rightly took advantage of, I will be grateful for always.

Majority of high school I spent questioning what I wanted to do with my life. Having to plan out practically your entire life path at the age of seventeen, since you technically won’t even be an adult by the time graduation rolls around, is a big contributor towards stress. My dream may have been to be an astronomer, where I would’ve had to spend almost an entire decade in college. Personally, I found that unrealistic. It’s not like I’m a top ten student, or could ever afford to attend a high end institute to enter that career. Though my senior year I decided on a path that would make me both a better person, and help others be better as well. I want to become a teacher. I want to help shape the lives of children, where I can love what I’m doing.

Remember that it is okay to be lost at times. We all grow at different rates, experience different things. It is important to take what is given to you and use it to its full advantage. Without high school, I wouldn’t be the person I am presently. I now am fully aware of what I’m working towards and how I can be the most successful. It is time to close the doors that are high school– because when one door closes, another opens.

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