Alternative

One of my biggest mistakes was going to alternative. First off let me give you a background on why I went in the first place. I have struggled with school since the beginning of my Freshman year and which now I am a senior. I struggled with English big time it was one of my hardest classes and still to this day is. By my junior year I was so over English and school in general. I had a really hard time with the social aspect of school and it was extremely hard to get through the day.

Not only was school really hard, I was in a pretty toxic relationship which just made life difficult. I was in this relationship from my Freshman year to the end of my Junior year. We saw each other everyday at school and honestly he wanted nothing to do with school and graduating which made it very difficult to have goals. Every goal or ambition I had always had to revolve around him. While dating him I kind of just gave up on school and trying so hard because when I did he would just bring all of my hopes and dreams down. So my grades slipped and by Junior year my first semester is when I first failed a class. Not just 1 class but 2. By the time we broke up by the end of 2nd semester. I could not stand being in the same school as him and honestly I though I wasn´teven smart enough for school anymore.

After we broke up and I failed those to 2 classes I finally had my chance to go to Alternative. I had previously before tried to go but was denied. So I went the last 2 weeks of my junior year. I Knew right away that it wasn´t for me, but I had to give it a chance so I finished the last 2 weeks there and was going to give it another shot my senior year to see if it was better. Which it was not!! First of all alternative previously was in a different school and now it was back at the high school. Which did not help my anxiety of being in the same school as my ex. The setup of alternative was not a right fit for me and I had to take the responsibility for my actions on realizing on exactly what I needed and what I did not need to succeed. I needed hands on work not book work. I have a very hard time staying focused and in alternative you need to be constantly focused. Not only did I make myself realize that but my alternative teacher also helped me realize that staying focused is really hard for me in alternative She knew right away that alternative wasn´t right for me and that I should be taking a different path for getting my high school diploma. She was a really big part of me coming back because she knew what my strengths and weaknesses are.

I realized that in alternative that I really need a more open environment and I learned to not doubt myself. I also learned to believe in myself a lot more. A month into alternative I asked to come back to school because I realized I was smart enough for regular school and I also realized my ex being in the same school as me doesn´t matter and he doesn´t get to control my learning. I was approved to come back and now I am doing better than ever.

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