Tour Date

I have always been on the fence about going to college and it was always something I thought I could never do or would be interested in. But things do change however. Last year after one of the playoff games in lacrosse I was approached by a man wearing green and a hat that said Husson University on it. He had asked if I was A H and I said yes. He had stated that he was the Lacrosse coach over at Husson university and was looking at how i played defense. He gave me his number and had said he would love to schedule a visit sometime for me to meet the team and see the school. I said I would love to tour the school though in my head I knew that I was looking at trade school  during this time. With no intention of visiting I went on with my life. Until about a month ago I thought to myself maybe I want something else other than a blue collar job. Maybe I wanted to really test myself and try exploring my options. So I called Coach O l and asked for a date to visit as well as a time. So as of yesterday I went for a visit and a personal tour of the school and the sports facilities.

When I first arrived at the school I walked into the gym to meet up with the coach and I felt all the eyes where looking at me. It felt like everyone was signing me out, viewing me as an outcast but not heard. Although in reality no one was paying any attention to me at all and they were all in their own world working out and having conversations amongst each other. I met up with the coach and we started the tour. As time went on, coach O brought me to the cafeteria to get me free lunch and to meet up with the current Lacrosse team. This made me feel extremely nervous and anxious to meet a bunch of people I had never met nor have any idea who they are. Meeting the whole team at one time would mean that I was alone in the fact that I was brand new and the center of attention and all the conversation amongst the team and even coach O. But as we walked over before I sat down most of the team shook my hand and introduced themselves and the position and major. I had introduced myself back and said nice to meet you too. This simple familiarization made me feel better but the feeling of being completely alone was overwhelming. I was alone in this situation. I had no one to guide me or tell me what to do. They all got lunch and acted as if I wasn’t there. They were all picking fun at each other as most guys and teams do. So this had a feeling of familiarity but I could not ignore the overwhelming feeling of being excluded because I had no idea of the context behind jokes so I awkwardly laughed as if I was part of the team though I knew I wasn’t. Some of the stories were very funny and I acted as if I was calm when in reality I was stressed and ridden with anxiety as the lone high schooler in the group with no past with these guys.

“Berlin Startup Tour” by Heisenberg Media is licensed under CC BY 2.0.